damn. how come carly smithson goes home when she really did well? double damn. i really like her. she's actually my second bet next to david cook. oh well, i guess the votes really turned it up. i just wish that america would consider talent more as a major factor. hmmmmmm. sad.

my number one bet, of course, david cook. such a powerful voice and very adventurous in re-arranging the melody of every song. well, but of course, he didnt change music of the night, which i may say, he really did good. though my number one favorite from him would still be always be my baby. damn. so hot. hahaha i heart david cook. <3

oooohhh. left handed.

oh, before i forgot. i also like what syesha sang. she really did it well too. with the sexy red dress. whew!

Musica: always be my baby :: david cook

after watching nim's island with phoebe at market market yesterday, we drowned our heartaches away after eating our sinful dinner and dessert. *sigh*

haaaay. after almost 8 years, ngaun lang pinakita sken ng tadhana ang friendster account ni rictor. bket ba ganun ha? eh dati ko pa tintype ung name niya pero walang lumalabas. kanina after sa tagal ko ng nagffriendster, naicipan ko magbrowse ng mga users, tsaka lumabas ung profile niya.

"caught him in the arms of another." (evidence :: urbandub)

syempre, shocked ang lola niyo. i was like, "oh.my.god! whoaaaaah!" super naman ung reaction ko. well haller. 8 years kaya un.

oh, ano naman ang naramdaman ko? asar. oo. asar. xe bket ngaun lang? bket ngaun ku na lang ulet nagkaron ng link? *sigh* nung nagexplore ako sa profile niya, nakita ko na may mga common friends kme. bket talaga hindi pumasok sa icip ko dati na baka may link na xa sa ibang schoolmates nmen before? asar tlaga.

inis. diba asar din un, ibang term lang? haaaaay. eh sa nakakainis eh. hindi ko nga alam kung kanino ako naiinis basta naiinis ako.

unknown. nung makita ko xe xa, in a relationship na ang status. so, "ooooowwwwkaaaaay" naman ang sagot ko. hahaha. pero basta. unknown. ang hirap eh. pag-aaralan ku muna to bago ko bigyan ng proper identification tong feeling na to.

sad. eh xe, parang ang tagal ng nasayang na years. lam niyo un? parang feeling ko, "sana may nagawa ako before." "sana na-kontak ko xa before kpag special occassions. hindi ung dito ko xa sa blog ko binabati ng happy birthday etc..." nakakalungkot xe icipin na pinagkait sken ung 8 years eh.  

happy. xe ganun pren xa. promise. hahaha. ung itsura niya before, ahahaha. physically nagbago lang sa kanya i think was his height and xempre the body. yup. he's been busy all these past years and improved his body. oh well. no personal-public comment from me regarding that matter. in general though, HOT-NESS. hahahaha. just stating what i saw and i appreciate. hahaha.

yuck. desperdo ako makakuha ng kuneksyon ulet sa kanya and to update each other as well, kaya gumawa pa ko aim account. haaaaay. eh hindi ko nga alam kung naaalala pa ba niya ko eh. 

parang ang sakit ng ganun noh? ung tipong, ikaw, naaalala mo ung taong un lage pero ikaw hindi na niya kilala. haaaaay. hindi ko tlaga alam bket ba parang mas malungkot ako. naguguluhan tuloy ako. i just miss him so baaaaad. i want him back here. this feeling is really bringing me down.

 

  

melt with you

Moving forward using all my breath
Making love to you was never second best
I saw the world thrashing all around your face
Never really knowing it was always mesh and lace

I'll stop the world and melt with you
You've seen the difference and it's getting better all the time
There's nothing you and I won't do
I'll stop the world and melt with you

(You should know better?)
Dream of better lives the kind which never hate
(You should see why)
dropped in the state of imaginary grace
(You should know better?)
I made a pilgrimage to save this humans race
(You should see why)
What I'm comprehending a race that long gone bye

(I'll stop the world)
I'll stop the world and melt with you
(I'll stop the world)
You've seen the difference and it's getting better all the time
(Let's stop the world)
There's nothing you and I won't do
(Let's stop the world)
I'll stop the world and melt with you

The future's open wide

(Let's stop the world)
I'll stop the world and melt with you
(Let's stop the world)
I've seen some changes but it's getting better all the time
(Let's stop the world)
There's nothing you and I won't do
(Let's stop the world)
I'll stop the world and melt with you

The future's open wide

hmmm hmmm hmmm
hmmm hmmm hmmm hmmm
hmmm hmmm hmmm
hmmm hmmm hmmm hmmm

I'll stop the world and melt with you
(Let's stop the world)
You've seen the difference and it's getting better all the time
(Let's stop the world)
There's nothing you and I won't do
(Let's stop the world)
I'll stop the world and melt with you
(Let's stop the world)
I'll stop the world and melt with you
(Let's stop the world)
I'll stop the world and melt with you
(Let's stop the world) 

 

oh, bago mag-isip ng kung anu-ano, yan xe ang pinakikinggan ko. un lang un. haaaaaaaay. missing him. at least, honest! hahahaha 

Musica: melt with you :: modern english
Mood Swings: happy and sad

haha. nonsense entry.

i was browsing friendster. and i saw this guy, a classmate during my senior year in high school. we dont move in the same group of friends but, hey, we're still classmates and all. i usually ignore his profile since we're not that close nga. but i dunno. tonight, i decided to check it out.

and there he was.

whew! it was a plus before in high school that he was tall. now, a waaaaay plus plus for his body! hahaha. ok ok. what can i say? shallowness? haha. but hell, just a woman appreciating the awesome-ly hot body of a male specimen. haha. eeeewww. that sounded so... scientific. hahaha

but really. good thing im not that much of a sucker for guys with greatly-toned bodies. hahaha. i just admire them. specially the tall guys. whew. haha

oh, and i love the nesvita commercial! *drools* shucks. derek ramsay and will devaughn. *wipes drool* hahaha.

Musica: evidence :: urbandub

oooooh. i bought a sketchpad. i dunno. i was craving for one for almost 2 days. so, i bought one and decided to pursue my awful sketches around every notebook i had. hahaha. i remember my notebook in college, the little one, had more sketches at the back than notes on all the lectures and subjects i had in front. hahaha. yup. i sketch while listening. because if i listen all the way, i'll be sleepy as hell. so i tend to draw and distract myself while listening at the same time. hahaha.

Musica: limang dipang tao :: barbie almalbis
Bookworm: drawing lessons at drawspace.com
Mood Swings: escited to sketch

the other night, i had a wonderful dream that woke me up feeling really excited and fired up.

i dreamt of rictor.

oh, dont get me worng. he's a friend. i consider him my first ever best guy friend. we we're classmates during our first year high school. unfortunately his family went abroad.

ok, ok. i'll admit. at first he was my crush and all. hell, he was cute and gentleman and smart and everything! but i got the hang out of it since we spend a lot of time talking on the phone and hanging around. he even courted my friend and well, they became a couple discreetly. since they are not "legal", he would end up calling me first to check if he call my friend/his girlfriend. and if my friend isnt available, we would end up talking and he would usually complain about how he's missing her and all. eventually, they decided to break up since he'll be living in states.

during our second year, he gave me the shock of my life when someone called and tadaaaa! it was him wasting money calling long distance! haha. we would normally talk longer before he calls my friend with just a little more two minutes left in his card. i felt bad but i was more happy and thankful.

nwei, back on the dream. i was supposed to be meeting friends. when i called them, not just the 3-g where you can see them while talking, but the more high tech where the screen is waaay wider and better, he just suddenly popped out of nowhere while i was speaking to my friend. he even looked smug and smiled at me. i freaked out and screamed his name! i was so shocked that he was back in the country! i went crazy and an idea came up that i should tell him what i felt for him before we were best of friends. i dunno. then while running down the building to go to him, i woke up. damn.

i woke up happy and agitated! my mind was screaming, "rictor's back!" i was really acting grumpy and thinking what that dream meant. and the idea that i should tell him that he was my crush before we even got close. i was asking myself, "what the hell are you thinking? how come you suddenly want to tell him your feelings? that's sooooo not you." i realized that and it actually shocked me. im not the "confess your feelings" type of girl. so how come i reacted on impulse that i want to change and tell him everything without even thinking what his reaction would be? wow. that's a first. its as if, if i was about to risk dong this the first and last time, i'll gladly confess to rictor and no one else. double wow. that's weird.

maybe because i know whatever i say or confess to him, he'd still be there. as lovers or not. but definitely as best friends still.

i miss you rictor palentinos. come home soon. love, yang.

Musica: money for food :: barbie almalbis
Mood Swings: full

whenever i see the booksale logo, no matter how i try to fight it, my feet, moves directly in it. my eyes, search desperately to find my author. my hands, itching to grab and never let go. my money, crying because she'll be leaving my grasp.

before riding the jeepney in order to get home, i managed to stop by and check (as always) the booksale in shaw. i noticed this book i was looking for ages to complete my set with the same lead character which i fell in love with. the ever famous, dr. hannibal lecter. <3 the first book i bought which started it all was hannibal by thomas harris. then i got my hands on red dragon by the same author. silence of the lambs was the hardest one to find. i already watched it all but, well, reading is different. and besides, it completes my set.

i was holding it as if i was holding on to my dear life. hahaha. then my eyes flicked over the other books and what have we found? a hard to find sequel from my favorite author. oh wow. my luck is really going up. hard to find. you have to ask the saleslady in st. francis square because i happen to go there almost once a week before to check if they have this. hahaha. now, i have my heart and my brain in my hands!

then still strolling around, (yup. im awfully greedy when it comes to books) i then found one more book from my same fave author. oh my. now, im carrying 3 books, which the last one i found is a big one mind you. those type of major-subject-books. i may look like crazy trying to think real hard which one to drop, leave beahind and wish that nobody buys it until i come net time and buy it for myself. i was really arguing with myself. i was like, "i cant leave silence of the lambs, i was looking for it for ages! and i also cant leave nora roberts behind too. this one's a sequel. but i also cant leave the other nora roberts. it might be heavy and all but hell, it goes cheaper and a sequel too. oh my."

what happened? i closed my eyes nd went directly to the cashier. i was praying that the cashier finishes off fast enough before i change my mind. hell. i bought 3 books and it cost me around 410 bucks. OH. MY. GOD. i could have watched 3 movies at greenbelt with that amount!

speaking of movies, watched doomsday with, of course, my ever reliable movie buddies. the bestfriends, john and mark! yiheeee. hahaha. its gruesome. eeew. with lotsa blood and a pretty cool car chase. but i personally think it's "BITIN" haha. i dunno. its just i felt, "that's it? its finished? awww" hahaha. maybe that's why my fellas slept some time during the movie. hahaha. i didnt chose that. they chose the movie and they snoozed. hahaha.  

Mood Swings: lucky

NAMIMISS KO ANG....

grade six barkada ko. oo. pasaway. bully. siga. maldita. pala-away. teacher's enemy. matigas mukha. name it, we're it. ang mga literal na habulan sa mga teachers dahil overtime kame sa school. may curfew xe. eh dahil bagong lipat kme ng bahay noon, sinusundo pa ko ng mom ko after work. dahil wala akong kasama maghintay, like a true barkada, sinasamahan nila ko kahit may curfew at bawal. hahaha. ayun! kinabukasan, lahat ng names nila nasa bulletin board sa hallway! mga list ng hindi maglalaro sa intrams, hindi kasama sa ggraduate. as usual, name it, kasama kami lage! actually, sa barkada, ako lang ang laging hindi kasama sa mga list na un. xe may reason ako. alam ng school na sinusundo ako kaya may valid reason ako. ayun! lusot lage ang drama ko at barkada ang sumasalo ng mga kalokohan. hahahaha. i miss those days...

third year family ko. st. clare. the best section pren ever para sa buong high school years ko. eto ang pamilya ko. ung type na may mga barkada pero kpag pinagsama-sama mo lahat, mag mmerge at mag mmerge ng walang problema. walang conflicts sa bawat grupo. isang malaking family tlaga. tsaka first time pren sken ang lalake na adviser! si sir dueñas! oo, hindi siya ganun ka-concern sa classroom at hindi siya ganun ka disciplinarian. pero naman! noon lang ako nakakita ng adviser na super hands on sa intrams! at wag ka! kahit maingay ang klase, bigla na lang siya magsasalita ng "class, with respect to the given angle..." trigonometry xe ang tinuturo niya, so kame parang..."ok. tahimik na tayo xe trigo ang tinuturo nito. no choice kundi makinig" i think effective tlaga ung approach. well, at least smen ha. xe sa ibang section, super terror daw ung si sir. as in pag galit, nako, nakakatakut. haha. pero smen naman, ayos lang. nagtatapon nga lang siya ng libro don sa "high voltage" na kwarto kpag iniiwan nmen ung books nmen. hahaha. aside pa don, third year ako nagstart mgtraining for CSPST. (women's CAT version). kaya madame tlaga kme pinagsamahan ng mga clare family ko. haaaay. i miss st clare soooooo badly.

james of zebedee. whew! di ako ganun ka active dito xe officer na ko. pero ok ang bonding nmen. kumpleto ang variety. may officer, may scounting, may crusader! lahat! CAT officer na guy lang ang kulang nmen. pero nwei, ok pren. masaya. makulit. may sariling mundo. tight ang samahan. hanggang ngayon, lumalabas pren naman kme. painom inom. pa easy easy. haaay.

ewan ko ba. i miss them. haaay. especially my clare family.  

Musica: step up 2 OST
Screen: church :: tpain