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yeah. i am dedicating this entry to two of my friends who gave me such amazing CDs.

first would be mr. jason catedral, for giving me the cd "the best of manila sounds: hopia, mani, popcorn" thanx man!

and of course, ms. lenny napay for giving me the season 3 of grey's anatomy! wow! i love you so much! i already watched one episode and i was really addicted to it. i can watch it again and again and again and again..... damn.

Mood Swings: addicted

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woohoo! just turned 19 last sunday. that was the happiest besides my debut of course. my cousins, namely, ate donna (seksi), john paul, janey, jalou, mm, and cheche slept over last saturday. they pitched in money to buy cake and food for me. (awwww.. that was really sweet guys!) we we're singin 'till the sun was up and we were playing tongits. hahahaha. todo videoke till 7:30! we went to mass at 8 and we we're dizzy and sleepy especially cheche and me. armed with big eyebags! and still, i'm happy. they're the reason for my happiness. my relatives who were always there and very supportive. no. not relatives. but family.

PS. and xie, tanxz so much for grey's anatomy season 1 and 2. since prelims are finished, i can go gaga over it na. i love you.  

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wow. long time since i used the free internet here at our library. hahaha.

team spirit. not literally spirit as in "spirits". though i know we have our very own at the ust buildings. school spirit as in cheering and moral support. we are very generous in giving those you know.

an hour ago, we went to the gym to watch the cheermania from different colleges as well as the ust high school. it was really cool. we went there to support of course our very own college of commerce as well as my seatmate, mafe. (malakas ka sken eh!) the ust yellow jackets performed an intermission before the start of the cheerdance and it was cool. really. funny and astig! there were five of them and they were cheering the ust. but when the "black-gold-black-white cheer" came, 2 students who were also a part of the ust yellow jackets entered the gym wearing ateneo jackets and started cheering the ateneo. after them came the ue red warriors then, the la salle green archers and the university of the philippines with their astig cheer "unibersidad ng pilipinas" (i really like that coz its tagalog and kakaiba) the ust yellow jackets walked out and all the other universities started to yell their own cheer at the same time! they were starting to get dirty when the ust entered the gym to stop their fights, armed with more yellow jackets this time. hahaha! funny talaga!

i realized that even though others say that we suck most of the time at basketball, (still champions dear) we are realy generous in giving our voices and cheer to them. corny though, but i feel at home shouting the "go uste" and the "black-gold-black-white" cheers! im proud to be a part of the thomasian community and be named as the "never say die" team!

by the way, i like watching mafe perform their routines. hahaha. really. she always show me her knee bruises but i think its worth it. mafe, dear seatmate, you're really good at what you do. you never lack grace when cheering and your energy level is so high you tend to become suplada and maldita at school. hahaha. we still love you though. i have no choice! you're my seatmate! hahaha. but really, kidding aside, i like watching you perform. you're the best and yet, never too maarte cheerer i've met. keep it up. (you owe me big time for being mentioned in my ultimately hot and very own blogsite gurl! a hug would do! )

Mood Swings: feeling the team

*confrontation between a girl and not just a talking mirror but a fiesty one*

mirror: so, why suddenly stare at me with such hurt in your eyes?

girl: because i feel so alone. and i hate it.

mirror: duh? what do you call me?

girl: mirror.

mirror: *argh* really, what happened? problem?

girl: i feel alone

mirror: ok ok ok! you dont have to repeat yourself all over. why do you feel alone?

girl: they are leaving me behind

mirror: you're really not a big help with your answers you know that?!

girl: im sorry. its just that a lot of people are starting to fade away. they are slipping one by one. and i dont like being left alone.

mirror: maybe you are holding them too tight.

girl: am i? i love them. i dont wanna lose them.

mirror: but they need to live their own life the way they want it too. you can't control them. you can't tell them who to love, respect, defy and hate. you have to accept them as they are. and that eventually, they will have to leave you for someone else. that's a reality of life.

girl: but im not good at that. i've been alone most of my life!

mirror: dont be such a possessive bitch!

girl: yes i am! and so what?! i am because i care! because i dont wanna be alone! because ... (breaks down)

mirror: i know. i understand. its hard because i cant do anything to help you out. but i promise this one thing. and dont put my promise next to theirs because mine is not said during the heat of the moment nor at the peak of emotions... mine was said perfectly and from the heart. thought about it for over a million times and still, "i wont leave you. i'll always as in always be here for you. i'll back you up whenever you're attacked by problems and stress. i'll scream at you when you're wrong just like now. but i wont ever ever leave you. im not like them. im a lot better. i think clear enough. i feel stoic and stoned most of the time. but i smile. and you can count on me"

girl: really? but i know that i will always have you... but that's the same as having myself and no one else.... (shed more tears while mirror looked at her sadly and vanished)

 awwww.... hahaha. too bad. an sad naman ng story. but im ecstatic. i am smiling all through out all the day! hahaha. and i dunno why. really. this was a super late story because this was way beyond the past. i just have to put it here coz its in my personal journal. dont get me wrong. really. this means nothing. just a part of the past and a crystal clear message that i've left that stupid past behind and became happy with what and who i have. im thankful for all the blessings and people who never fail to understand and accept my bitchy-sarcastic-evil-self. my parents, relatives and xie. sila lang. sila pa lang. sila muna sa ngaun. masaya na ko kasama sila at nanjan sa tabi ko.

Mood Swings: ecstatic