fullmoon_goddess

whew. its been forever since we saw rictor again. at first, yeah, it was awkward and we're all quiet and everything. but well, knowing how wacky and talkative we are, we managed to bring back, maybe not all, but at least some of our friendship before.

went to his sister's birthday party first at max'z restaurant at marikina. wow. they danced and wow. they really did great. double plus because they're pretty too.

after the birthday, we decided to hang out and asked if rictor will be allowed to go with us. and yup, there we are hailing for a cab to drive us to eastwood libis. stayed at blue onion and had one bottle of beer. after that, his cousins wanted to go to timog and asked us if we want to join them. so we ended up at barrakz timog.

we felt like we rode the time machine and went back to being first year high school students again! had some shots then danced! soooo hoooot. hahaha. danced with everyone!

wont be able to forget one dance though. hahaha. no comment na lang. ask me in private if you wanna know the details. hahahaha.

really. had fun. but we all have to go back to the present and leave the past away in our memories. in our hearts. we have to live our lives now. we have to let go of the past especially if we are hurting some people who are part of our lives at present. the past is just a happy memory that we will always keep.

without formality, i considered him to be my first guy best friend. but things change. and now my entries are receiving malice. simply because i stated facts that i did liked him waaaaay back. even before he and my friend became a couple. but i liked him for maybe just a few days. because we clicked better as friends. i liked our status. im more comfortable being close to him, talking about anything, sharing secrets and problems, without receiving any weird looks like im stealing a boyfriend. because im not. for gawdsakes! i consider him as my best friend! damn. now, i feel like as if the friendship we shared before has changed. he seems distant and all just because of my entries before.

its sad. but hell. what can i do? like i said before. a lot has already changed. maybe we lost a great deal of our friendship because of the fact that i missed him all this time. maybe he felt awkward and decided to keep his distance. oh well.

i still had fun. thanks guys. thanks rictor and his cousins. it's good to have you back. have a safe trip and come back soon. keep the communication open this time okay? im sorry, but i'll still miss you. no matter what you say. no matter what she say. no matter what they say. i'll still miss you. the hell with them.  hahaha.

Mood Swings: nostalgic

fullmoon_goddess

dami nangyare lately. hmmmm. hindi naman sa madame pero compared sa normally lokohan-kwela-bored office days, nagkaron ng mga tension.

good thing, swerte ako sa mga kasama sa office. stick together tlaga. thanks lang kay terry (ang bully na kuya) xe na-voice out niya ung side ko. xa ung nangatwiran tlaga. oo. bully ka akala mo! hahaha. pina-practice mo smen ni abby ang pagiging lalake mo. hahaha. pwera xe bunso ka kaya wala kang nabbully sa sisters mo. hihi

ate abby, ang aking ka-level. magkatinginan lang kme niyan, nagkakaintindihan na kme. alam na nmen iniisip ng bawat isa at sure shot, hindi sasablay, in synch tlaga ang wave length and brain cells nmen. sa kalokohan, sa kabastusan, sa lahat! hahaha. un nga lang, ang tingin tlaga smen ni terry ay kapwa lalake. hahaha. hidina ata kme magmumukhang babae sa kanya eh.

si rico. ang maluho sa pagkain. pamilyadong tao pero naman! maisipan kumain, go lang ng go! hahaha. ang fave nmen tirahin ni abby. haha. daig pa nmen ung mga anak nito eh. hahaha. ganun nmen xa kinukulit.

si kuya molly. minsan lang sa office pero napapadalas nren ngaun. makulit din to eh. hahaha. papagawan na kita ng tarpaulin na cape. palalagyan ko nren ng letter "S" para twing nagpapasuyo silamagpakabit ng tarpaulin, isusuot mu un. hahaha

MET II pa lang yan ha. wala pang MET I jan. at ung mga guards na kalokohan na nmen lahat. hihi. astig.

buti anjan sila kpag sumasabit ako sa trabaho. ang mga kalokohan nten, walang tatalo. peronatalo kme sa inuman nung birthday ni rico! syete. reresbak ang MET II at kme pren ang tatanghaling kampeon kpag nwala silang lahat. kme ang matitibay na naiiwang umiinom at kumakanta kahit malayo pa ang uuwian nmen ni terry. at FYI, bus pren kmeng dalawa umuuwi ha. hahaha.

salamat tlaga. pero in fairness, na touch ako nun ah. di ko nalalagay dito. baka ma c.i. pa ako. hahaha. basta. smen na lang un. sken nalang.

TEN-EX terry-ble!

TENKS PO lou-vable!

TNX rico-boy and molly-boy. 

fullmoon_goddess

malakas.

napapalakas ako uminom.

actually, malakas na ata talaga ko uminom. i always try to push myself to the limit. hahaha. oo. cguro nga tinatamaan din ako pero not to the point na nakakalimutan ko ang mga nangyayari sa paligid ko. im always aware and i can go home in one piece. i dont vomit along the streets. i just sleep my drunkness away.

kaya cguro nila ko sinasabihan na ang lakas ko daw. hahaha. im always sober. parang wala lang. kahit madami na nainom, parang di obvious ang tama. oo. makulit. pero more on antukin.

but wait. why am i even discussing this topic? weird. hahaha, cant find a good topic to discuss and rant about xe.

i want to download more songs but i dont know what else to download. haaaay. 

sleepy.

rants.

lazy.

hell. maybe i should rest and sleep. next thing i know, it'll be monday again and i'll be spending my time with wacky people like terry and abby and rico. hahaha. 

fullmoon_goddess

tired and yet happy.

bored and yet enjoying.

single and yet intriguing.

alone and yet surrounded by family and friends.

im back to loving alternative songs again. maybe because i liked the voice of che whenever he sings this kind of songs. nice one che! and rj's voice is great too. cool engineers, awesome singers. naks!

Musica: all i really need is you :: david cook

busy-busyhan lang actually. goes to work everyday, but kills time sitting and bumming around. hahaha. funny. bored to death and sleepy. i freaked out and actually scared of this one tenant who was hitting on me. you know, the kind of hints that are kinda offensive and yet said in a good way. at first, i brushed it off with a smile and politeness. but the second time he dropped by the office, good thing there are 3 other guy engineers with me in there so i was acting really busy and ignoring him even if the administrator was talking to someone on the phone. i honestly didnt look at him and talk to him. im pissed off and dont want to talk to him again. but that would be hard since im part of the admin. so i'll try all my damned best to just move out of the way and ignore him as much as i can. hahahaha. the nerve.

fullmoon_goddess

yup. feeling contented lately. happy with my decisions. happy with what i have right now. really. i may go home feeling tired after work, but still, everytime i walk out of the building, a smile plastered on my face is clearly visible. i wake up every morning feeling excited and nervous at the same time. i maybe quiet most of the time but still, i feel fine. i am happy. most of my officemates at our tower were male engineers but that's not actually a big deal for me. im immune to guy friends since i always have them around since i was still in elementary. hahaha. still, no regrets.

P.S. and tomorrow would be my first night out with them! hahaha. to think i'll be a week old tomorrow too. hihi. 

Mood Swings: sleepy

fullmoon_goddess

shucks. happy and yet nervous as hell. my bum days are over. welcome corporate world!

tomorrow is the BIG day. gotta start right. gotta smile the worries away. gotta do my best. gotta learn and most of all remember lotsa things. hahaha. makakalimutin pa naman ako. so review review. lalo na sa mga names! hahaha. hope i can last through out the day. one day at a time ang pananaw ko eh. hahaha. if i can survive tomorrow then i think i can survive the following days too. i just hope for the best. LOOK. i hope. i dont expect. hahaha. i hope for the best but i expect the worst. para kahit ano mangyare, ready and hindi masyado nakaka-shock. whew!

inhale.

exhale.

inhale.

exhale.

inhale.

exhale.

stand tall, stand proud. walk with your head up. SMILE.  

Mood Swings: nervous

fullmoon_goddess

been busy lately. nervous most of the time due to the scheduled interviews and exam at this company. i want to do good and give my best shot since i already sacrificed one banking job for what i was hoping would come a better one. so finally here it comes.

was able to watch iron man with mark at gateway on its first day! whew! talk about luck. hahaha. we were supposed to watch forbidden kingdom since i know that iron man will still be available for a few weeks or so. unfortunately, the next screen time was scheduled at 4 pm. and we dont want to waste our time waiting for 2 hours thats why we ended up with iron man. cool. i like the soundtrack. i miss the heavy rock music. the story though is focused more on how iron man was made. the cars are cool. all audi cars. nice. i think robert downey jr. did a great job portraying tony stark. the movie was great but i feel "bitin" during the action scenes. but all in all, its ok. cool.

so now, im enjoying my last days of being a bum. hahaha. sleep and sleep. tv and internet. books. damn. im nervous. hahaha. corporate world is such a scary place. hahaha. but still, i want to be a part of it. i can imagine myself smiling and greeting the pioneers with enthusiasm. well, i hope i can still smile even if some people are just rude and harsh. i'll keep up. i have to hold the leash on my temper hard enough so it wont slip until i know its safe. haha. i just hope that i can withstand the trials that will soon come my way and stick to the company. i'll do my best. and of course, practice the winning-charming smile. hhaha 

Musica: iron man :: black sabbath
Bookworm: iron man quotes
Mood Swings: happy